Total ramblings of a nutbar

So, I got highjacked by a Cheese and Raz. Am out at Da Cheese's place right now. We decided that breakfast at the truck-stop was a good idea, then needed to go to the dollar store to pick up a couple things. I found some very nice chenille type yarn in a soft grey, but they didn't have any crochet hooks. So, off to Wal-Mart we go. I find the hook I want then meet the boys at the checkouts. Of course, they only have 2 express lanes open, and as normal, there are people in the line who don't understand the meaning of the rule of 10. I kept making comments about it to Raz, until the woman in front of me made commented about another lady who was putting mutliples of everything she bought on the counter. She turns and looks at us with a grin on her face and asks if having more than one item of the same thing makes it all one item. We of course laugh and say yes. We finally get up to the check out and I hand the crochet hook to the girl. She looks at me, dead serious and asks if I crochet. Raz and I just about fell over. I looked at her and said "No, I'm just getting it to have one..."


It just kills me to have that question asked. I mean really, you're going to ask me a stupid question, I'm going to laugh at you..............

That's all I have to say.

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It's like they were there and they know!

Yea. My day was great, then I talked to Raz. Of course, it has put a rather big damper on my day, but I'm getting used to this kind of crap. I really wish I wasn't, and that my life was not as messed up as it is.

Now, I have no one to blame for any of this but myself, and my complete lack of will power when it comes to spending money. I know where it comes from, but I just can't seem to stop myself.

I will find a way to deal with this, it's just going to hurt a lot to do it.

Ok, I survived. Worked the till at the midnight launch for GTA4 yesterday, or would that be early early this morning. 150 people and a lot of money later, the later being 2 hours 15 minutes, and I was ready to fall down. Got home about 3:30 am. went straight to bed, and have just gotten up, still feeling sleepy. But, I should make myself mobile.

I was impressed at just how well behaved they were. No fights, just a lot of weed. And I mean A LOT! But whatever.

I'ma go fall down now.

I'm screwed. Again! Visa has once again gone into my bank account and taken money out of it without my authorization. In doing so, they have just made me bounce the car insurance payment, and all the person I talked to did was make me feel badly about myself because I'm abviously a terrible person cause I can't afford to pay things off. What the hell am I going to do? How the fuck do I deal with this? I'm robbing peter to pay paul, and I have no idea how to get the money in the first place.

Please, just shoot me? Maybe it'll make things better.

So, just finished writing my 3rd final for the semester. Things seem to be going ok. This one was Philosophy, and I think I managed to make it through it rather well. I wrote the one I have been stressing over yesterday, and I felt pretty damned good when I walked out of it. Finaira had been helping me with Stats, and with her help, I think I may have done ok. Guess I'll have to wait and see when I get my marks back.

We have the child tonight, and are just going to be staying home and hanging out with a few friends. Just a nice, calm, movie night. Nothing terribly exciting, but I think we all need that right now. Just something to calm down and chill out.

Anyway, gonna find something to entertain me for a while.

Later all.

Ok, one down, 4 to go. Bio was this morning, took me about an hour. I blanked on some of the short answer, and am trying really hard not to look at my notes to see where I went wrong. I sailed through the MC, but like I said, the short answer was a different question. Not hugely worried though. I'll do ok on it al east. Passing is not an issue.

Now I just need to find the time to get the other 4 done. Have Stats tomorrow. Finaira is coming over again this afternoon to help me get my head around these questions. We'll see what happens. Either way, it'll be over and done with by noon tomorrow. Then I have to try and focus on the other ones. Philosophy, Spanish and Psych.

So, I have been sitting at my desk all morning, trying to work through a practice exam for stats. The final is in 2 days, and I need to try and practice. So, I get through the quetions I recognize fairly easily (or at least I think so) and then log in to Macewan to check the solution key.

This is where the frustration arrizes. I seem to be making stupid calculation errors. I guess I need to try and be more careful, but if I don't notice the mistake, then my entire answer, and some of them are 5 or 6 parts, will be compleely wrong.

Of course the rest of the issue is that I don't recognize what some of the questions are supposed to be. I am trying to do this without looking in my textbook, so I'm kinda stumped right now. Need to go and reread the book.


Grumbles.......

Ok, so normally, I'm a fairly busy girl, but this week is insane! I haven't stopped with the stuff to do for about 6 days already, and it doesn't look like it's going to let up any time soon. Here's the run down.

Wednesday April 2, school
Thursday April 3 , School and work, day 1 of cold
Friday April 4, School and work, day2
Saturday April 5, had Sara
Sunday April 6, still had Sara and tutoring seesion, then took Sara home and went to D&D
Monday April 7, School and Partylite unit meeting
Tuesday April 8, stayed home from school to try and get some sleep and had to work in the afternoon, then had a tutoring session
Wednesday April 9, School and start at new job with Robborbob
Thursday April 10, school and work at Tabi
Friday April 11, school and work at EB
Saturday April 12, Work at Tabi, starting to do store flip, again
Sunday April 13, Work at Tabi store flip, and then D&D


I think I have monday free, but I don't know right now. Will have to see where the school schedule and EB schedule lies.

And I wonder why I got sick again?

So, I've been trying to figure out how I am going to get past this coming summer without falling flat on my face, financially. As a result, I will be working 2 part-time jobs, one of them alomst full time hours. Or at least I hope so.

I've decided that being a digital crack dealer is a good idea. I'm going to be working with Da Cheese, and still working at the clothing store too. Hopefully, this will help with the financial side of my OMg this sucks life. Other then tha, I have been spending time with Fin to try and pass stats, and I seem to be doing well in the rest of my classes.

Nothing else to really report.

So, for the past little while in Phil class, we have bee talking about the meaning of life. As such, we have had to do a few reading assignments on the subject. Things written by great philosophers about how life can be seen as meaningless and absurd, even, if given half a thought.

So, here is what I was thinking, I can agree that life is absurd, but I want to know what you guys think. Take your time, have a few drinks, and I'll even be more than happy to let you borrow my readings to help you along, but give me your honest thoughts about the real, true, meaning of life.

This ought to be interesting.

ETA: Ok then. I'll change the question. Tall_Man is right, the question should be WHERE do I find meaning in my life, so lets go with that.

I hate being sick. It sucks big hairy himilayan goat balls.

I went to bed last night feeling fine. Woke up about 6ish feeling like I had been hit by a truck. My throat and sinuses are not very happy right now, and neither am I.

Grrrr.............

So, for my philosophy class, we have to write an argumentative essay about the death penalty. Now, I'm fairly comfortable with my personal view of the validity of this form of punishment. That's not the issue. My issue is that in order to do this essay, we have to read 2 articles out of our text books and use them as the basis for our essay. The one for the defense was ok, nothing hugely spectacular that left me agreeing whole heartedly with the author, but then, I'm not really all that surprised. The one for the case against, on the other hand, makes me want to scream.

I have only gotten 2 pages in to it, and I want to kill someone..... no the irony does not escape me on this...... The article is so racially biased that I'm having a hard time trying to read it for any factual evidence. some of the things they are using make me want to find the author and ask him if he bothered to look at the figured for the rest of the country. He seems to be focusing on the areas of the US that are notorious for not treating people the same way due to the colour of their skin.

It's this kind of writing that makes me want to slap people and tell them to get their heads out of their asses. That African-American population has come a long way since the days of slavery, and I applaud them for the success they had found. No-one has the right to treat others differently simply because they don't look like you. I know it still happens, but I try (I'm not perfect, and I will never say I am) to treat people the same no matter what.

For an article like this to be used in a course about morality makes me want to scream.



Ok, done now. Sorry about this guys...... just a little wound up today..... ignore as you will

Ok, so I have managed to pass at least 3 of the second round of mid terms. I'm still waiting on the last one, and it's the one I am most concerned about. But I have an out if I fail. I can still drop the class without taking a hit to my GPA. I've talked to my teacher, and he understands completely. The other half is that if I manage, By the grace of whatever god I hold dear(No idea who that is right now), to pass, I will have 2 very smart people helping me to get all this figured out. Here's hoping things go the way I need them to, either of them!

As for the rest, I think I'll be ok. I still need to make sure I do better on my Bio final, but I think I might hit up fin and lakira to help me out with that one. It's not that I don't get it, it's the technical stuff that I think I might need a bit of help trying to make sure I have it all right in my head. And considering what those 2 ladies are studying, I figured they would be the best people to go to......... That is if they can spare me the time?~whimper~pout~

As for the rest, it looks like I'll be ok. Wont do as well as I would like, but no one to blame for that but myself. At least I can always do better next semester. Looks like I'm going to take 3 or 4 classes in summer session too. That way I can get a jump on the rest of the requirements for my degree and maybe move into the more entertaining stuff faster.

Yep! You heard me right! I'm a big freakin chicken.

Couldn't face going to school again today. See, on friday, I wrote the second midterm in my stats class. I walked in to it so very lost, and walked out of it crying. LITERALLY! It was ugly. I stared at the 6 questions and had absolutely no idea what I was doing. Today, I had stats, and could not face walking in to that class room and finding out how badly I did on the exam.

This is not good! I need to not fail this class. But I'm so bloody screwed up that I have no idea what I'm doing.

Stupid thing is, I can understand it fine in class when he explains it, and I can muddle through the assignments on my own ok, but the second I have to write an exam where I can't look at examples to figure out the question, I freeze up.

I don't do word problems very well, and that's basically all stats is.


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if I may borrow this one, I was hoping that I might get you to change it a bit for me. Looks like a good approximation of the tattoo design I have been looking for for a while now. I'll give you more info on it once I get it figured out and if you are willing, get you to redraw it for me?

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So, I started thinking about it last night, and I have come to a realization. I need a break. From just about everything, but there are certain things I can not take a break from. School, work, Sara and Raz. There are other things I can, and so, I think I need to right now. I have to much going on, and I don't have the energy to devote to all f them, and I am not focusing on the things that are important.

As it stands, I'm not going to be around much if at all for a while. I'm not going to be going to the pub on Thursdays, and I'm not going to go to the bar again for a while. I have things I need to take care of first, me being one of them.

I can't explain it without sounding incredibly selfish, and I really don't feel like getting into it right now. Suffice it to say that I need to take time away from things that I have been focused on to readjust my priorities.

Sorry folks. See you when I see you. Those of you who I spend time with outside the pub and such, I will see you soon, just don't expect a lot. Not doing to well mentally these days, and I'm trying to keep from falling apart.

Don't worry, I'll be fine, just need some time away.

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